latest developments

After I posted last night I received a text from SETTLE. We’d been having a conversation over a cig (i just started, and i’m not proud of myself but it calms me down), and he’s said something about another girl in our program being “all up on his dick” (yes, that’s verbatim). He complained about her leaning all over him and I said that maybe she liked him and that I wouldn’t lean on him. So later after we’d parted he texted me to say “ps you’re not __.” And I said, “does that mean I can lean on you?” We went back and forth a bit, I have a feeling his was looking for an invite to come to my room but that was not happening. I’m not sure if I’m ready to settle yet, but I have a feeling he thinks I’m very much into him. But I’m just a flirty person, which is probably counterproductive.

Texted HATE just a little while ago, that got nowhere. 

Me: Hey

HATE: Hey

Me: How are you

HATE: Fine, at work & busy so I can’t really talk

Me: Oh alright… take care then.

[End of Conversation]

I miss him quite terribly and I don’t think he realizes it. (Song: “Where I Stood” by Missy Higgins)

‘Til later

xoxo, a

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY