June 2010
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all to none
So lately there’s been nothing going on on the home front. HATE hasn’t texted, TAKEN is with his gf in another city, OPTION doesn’t give a shit and SETTLE is just a friend now. Life is officially boring and I’m finally okay with that :)
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note to self
Do not fall in love with someone who only thinks of you as an option.
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news
Alright well TAKEN has officially left the state :( Miss him quite terribly, although I’m sure he doesn’t realize it. Promise one of these days I’ll get up the balls to stop treating him like the love of my life and more like the asshole that strung me along.
New boy: IDK. His name is IDK because that’s just it, I don’t know how I feel about him. He’s a tall...
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updatesss
Just spent the night out with TAKEN again, drove around the area for a bit, took some suhweet photos (yes i said suhweet!). Nothing sexual happened, no awkward moments, just plain fun. As soon as I got to my room he texted me “that was incredibly fun. fyi.” can’t help but love the boy… i just keep telling myself, someday… someday.
xoxo, a
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i seriously need to stop doing things AFTER i post
I texted HATE… went a little better I guess. I’m really not sure what I want out of all this, do I really want to get back with him? Or do I just miss being with someone? I know that if I had to choose between HATE and TAKEN, I’d choose TAKEN. But that’s beside the point because I will never have TAKEN. So HATE knows that I don’t know what I want but I also know that...
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updatesss
TAKEN and I have a “date” on Thursday night, exactly one week after the other trainwreck, doing heaven only knows what (left the details up to him). Every time we have one of those deep conversations, we end up bffls again right away. Very weird relationship we have, I must say.
Still nothing from HATE.
OPTION is still M.I.A., although he’s due back in the area tomorrow.
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just checking in
After my last post TAKEN saw a comment about smoking cigarettes, he didn’t preach but he showed some concern I guess you could say. I didn’t tell him that I started because of all the grief he was causing me, probably should have though, would have thrown him for a loop. But anyway, TAKEN does not like to go to bed angry so he tried to ease the tension with music. He knows me too well....
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latest developments
After I posted last night I received a text from SETTLE. We’d been having a conversation over a cig (i just started, and i’m not proud of myself but it calms me down), and he’s said something about another girl in our program being “all up on his dick” (yes, that’s verbatim). He complained about her leaning all over him and I said that maybe she liked him and...
what you need to know...
I am a 20 year-old romantic, where-your-heart-on-your-sleeve kinda girl, although I don’t advertise myself as such. My usual facade presents me as tough and independent person, with no need for anyone but myself.
Where I’m from or where I’m going is irrelevant to the romantic tragedy known as my life. The important thing to know is that at the moment there are four boys in it....
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Why...
So I made this blog to talk about boys.
The Good, The Bad, The Ugly.
‘Nough said, stand by for the first REAL post.
xoxo, a